Today today. Oh yes, today was blood test day where I hung around a LABCORP, probably chock full of the COVID-infected--but every day seems to be a day where I have to do something. Tomorrow I don't know that I do, but the next day, yes. Tomorrow will be yoga day, where I pick the class that has to help me get at least flexible enough-you do tend to naturally lose weight going through this garbage--it is so crazy, but I literally cannot imagine how this will all go but I am trying to, the emphasis on setting myself up for maximum survival. I have some calls in to the PEMF mat experience--again I am not sure if it is hogwash because I am someone who has tried everything--REIKI, reflexology, acupuncture, tai chi--lots of different juices and health food store recommended mixes over the years, everything from Noni to sour cherry and pomegranate juice to now the MSM, lots of different books, and even some personal experience with the Landmark Forum, there's not much I didn't try to make some sense of all of the shit--and ultimately I realized there is no sense to this shit. This ...
So I got a little help yesterday--this was good because we hadn't paid my credit cards in a few months and I needed a few things, as mentioned recently. A few hundred dollars can go a long way in my world to remedying things--right now things are a bit tight because of some of my last minute medical needs and some issues I had overspending a bit. I wasn't spending it on Louis Vuitton or anything like that, nothing fun, no, but on fucking food. I am kind of a foodie--I will spend good money on a good cut of meat or to complete a meal I think would be good to try--there's almost nothing I won't or feel I can't make. So on the list, as mentioned, is a PEMF mat, which may or may not be absolute hogwash hoo-ha whatever, but we will see--the cost of that will be $750 a month, so that might be lumped in with a possible place to help if someone offers, but the compression boots ended up being a bit over $105 and I have to tell you--they are AMAZING. Now, I have what do you call them, pastrami feet, ...
JFC. I have no idea who that girl was yesterday--those are not shoes I like to sit in for very long, and I have realized in my life that your experience is largely dictated by your attitude. Now I don't have the ability, clearly, to wish friends into existence here, but I can choose my attitude daily. Obviously right now there are some other forces in play that have some affect on my general feelings. I mentioned I am going through menopause--I haven't had my period since January--I started taking soy isoflavones and also MSM crystals, 1/2 tsp twice a day. The MSM is almost magical shit--I hope it kind of sets me up for some success in surgery--it has some anti-inflammatory properties that might bode well for me ultimately in the end. The other thing is the PEMF mat and the boots which attach to your legs when you are laid up in an easy chair all day are things I need to secure pre and post surgical intervention. I haven't solved the easy chair/recliner issue yet, but that's why they have Facebook marketplace, right? I am trying not to be a fucking burden on everyone ...
