Today is the last day of the birthday vacation. Was pretty nice in general though there are a few things I still didn't get done--surprise!
Today I went to the hospital again and came home. Today they tried to once again goad me with going to a therapist which--if you recall any of the mentions of me going to therapy over the past 17 years--usually it involves disaster. Or someone telling me to play the system more than I would even think to--remember the lady a few years back who kept telling me to apply for disability?
Because see, the things I bitch about are not things you should be filing for fucking disability over--I can still walk, talk and write, so disability once would normally presume would come up when or if I was ACTUALLY disabled, but I certainly did not appreciate the doctor telling me that was really my only choice.
Now looking back with that hindsight-maybe she was right. Maybe I should have done that and I would not have quite the debt--but my not-havingness would still be measurable as the same level of nothing.
As it is my little sister is putting an addition onto her home which is probably ...
I was in the shower this morning musing on things. I mused on what I want to accomplish over the next span of time. I recognized that though I am certainly more frequent than I have been in some time as of late...and yeah, that does feel good. But what the hell are any of you getting out of this? I mean--I did have to ask myself especially with the realization that every transaction err, interaction on the internet usually has some relationship to a some kind of exchange. An exchange of ideas, a give and take or relationship of sorts. A reason to return, I suppose is what I mean.
I give you all kinds of opinions and thoughts. Maybe sometimes you can empathize a bit, but as a general statement I don't think most people are walking away with any kind of satisfaction after their visit. No bookmark for a later time. That's the kind of exchange I am missing, I mean, crap. I share the shit out of reference materials and articles in even my facebook but this is all wind and no sail as they might suggest.
Articles and products and things I am excited about? Never ...
Ha. Well I suppose that's the most benign way I might be able to address a pretty uneventful yet full of events day that was my birthday.
Don is not a particularly thoughtful person, let's say. He isn't one to really think about flowers or the easy stuff. His idea of giving is usually centered around sex, which is great and all, but other gestures might be a nice addition obviously.
So, we woke up, I kind of passively aggressively started a fight on him playing video games and not paying attention to me and we went over to a place to eat, decided to forgo our usual alcohol and then walked the dog, came back and ta da. He was exhausted. After the flu shot I made him get--he was not doing well and really slept from 4 to like 9 am basically today. As he was not going to go out last night feeling like garbage so it was me and Ben and Alyse. I had already decided costumes were not required and the three of us proceeded to run out and see if we could get a table anywhere. We ended up at the bar of a restaurant I ...
