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Been quiet. I have to say this whole corona thing has been a lot illuminating. It has made me realize how fucking weak everyone is, to be honest. No, I am not going to be the source that tells you it's okay, fall apart, crumble as much as you need to because everyone else is. Yes, everyone is, which means we're going to have to buck up little campers, and be better examples.

Now for me, the inconveniences in life have never led me to think just because I want something to be true that it should be true. I have never thought just because I wanted something I should be able to have it at all. I cannot say I never questioned fate, the idea of God though I think that whole line of thinking is a sham, instead kind of leaning moreso towards Don's thought process here which is...never count on a dead man to do you any favors. I have lost everything so young and so long ago that this whole exercise to me leaves me not uncomfortable in the uncertainty--I have learned long ago nothing is guaranteed. Nothing. Not happiness, not poverty, not family, ...