Counting days, days counting. I have a thing for numbers so I tend to notice them a lot though clearly I am no mathematician--I have a plan to organize all my at-home notes into a book of sorts with all the finer details of things--but the one huge benefit or recommendation I think I have for everyone right now if you have an upcoming OHS or cardiac surgery of any kind is to try that yoga practice I recommended. No, really--one thing that we all do after major surgery is start hunching over to protect our chests and this kind of foundation will set you up better to resist that, not to mention the general health benefits of yoga in your life.
I haven't had a perfect diet since I got notified of this and decided to intentionally design my time pre-surgery. Yesterday I ended up in CVS buying their 3 for $3 boxed candy deal and ate the shit out of the Hot Tamales. I just ate 7 more because I love candy. The Charleston Chew is suffering from a theft problem where people slice the box and apparently steal half the contents while they ...
Soooo. You know I love being an experiment--actually that isn't true, but let's just say that in this life I have felt the need to be my own best advocate. I've experimented on myself over the years trying to find a balance and solution to my issues--the health issues are certainly way more fun to try and solve over the abandonment ones--that's been my biggest weakness is feeling that from literally everyone, and the heart issues seem to exist as a metaphor to that, a manifestation of my busted heart, searching and stretching for love and acceptance.
So let's go back to the self-experimentation. Sooo. The mat. I'm gonna tell you something about the mat. It both fascinates and terrifies me because I can feel it when it's on, I know when it's off, and this is not the heat issue--this is just the PEMF. I can feel its pulsing little surges underneath all that stone when it's activated via the controller, and I can even feel a difference in surge levels. I did yoga at about 9:05 earlier. Do I feel better as it's not even 10? I do. Could this thing be a magical solution for ...
Today's plan is clean this place up. I'll update later if it's worth remarking on visually. My mother-in-law got me a ridiculous recliner. I mean, it will be the nicest thing to sleep in and recover from surgery in. The problem is, because I am Queen nosy, my gift was revealed--which is not a bad thing given the change I requested today on it. The chair she bought for me was custom-built for me, but the chair that we should have gotten was custom-built for us both. I thought it would be a terrible thing to have a chair in here that would not accommodate us both, especially in the instance of what happens if I die? Then an expensive custom-built chair for me sits as a reminder of my non-existent recovery and even person--and he can't even get any comfort out of it. I would not do that to anyone--and see, this is why being nosy about your gifts can pay off. I know, it's rude. I'm an asshole, but ultimately I give a shit about my husband and his mental and physical well-being and there is no way I will let him get hurt with his ...
