Day 12: AVS coming soon

Soooo. You know I love being an experiment--actually that isn't true, but let's just say that in this life I have felt the need to be my own best advocate. I've experimented on myself over the years trying to find a balance and solution to my issues--the health issues are certainly way more fun to try and solve over the abandonment ones--that's been my biggest weakness is feeling that from literally everyone, and the heart issues seem to exist as a metaphor to that, a manifestation of my busted heart, searching and stretching for love and acceptance.

So let's go back to the self-experimentation. Sooo. The mat. I'm gonna tell you something about the mat. It both fascinates and terrifies me because I can feel it when it's on, I know when it's off, and this is not the heat issue--this is just the PEMF. I can feel its pulsing little surges underneath all that stone when it's activated via the controller, and I can even feel a difference in surge levels. I did yoga at about 9:05 earlier. Do I feel better as it's not even 10? I do. Could this thing be a magical solution for ...