when you throw up in your mouth

Man the panic is thick out there and the only thing we all have is we are all in it together. I am sick to my stomach as well because Don is far away and I have no absolute control over anything, including the people he runs into all the time. I am suddenly regretting not taking more selfies with him but we were never that couple but I hope to see him soon. His state has far less cases than this one but that doesn't mean shit when I am inside waiting for him by Skype every day and I cannot see what he does and who he comes into contact with--not that I am some super controlling person, but I think the temptation is less prevalent when there's me as a distraction clearly. I did send him a bunch of food so let's hope that helps him avoid contact with the public at large. I did make him get a shower head for his skin and water is filtered that he drinks so I did all I could. Ugh. But the waiting is what I hate. I am sickly lonely enough to want to see him ...