musings and losing

So guys, definitely the world is going to get a bit crazy. I am struck by the recognition that this little virus running around is going to seem pretty elementary and rudimentary in a few years much like TB...but right now it is kind of a big deal. I know a bunch of people are now working from home, something I did exclusively for 6 years before I quit in November. You know that working in an industry like that would not be advisable right now if you are looking to calm stresses and fears--and I am especially prone to those musings because I am, I guess, largely traumatized. People have done a number on me, and typically, yeah, it's people that wreck or elevate us. Last week I literally destroyed all patterns of sleep and good behavior being anxious about soup, but there were underlying failures there because of the reasons behind it. Cook for him and he won't need to leave the room, and can avoid contact with unsavory viruses. Failing at that I took pretty personally, and really wasn't something I was ready to fail at.

This week's anxieties are Don and money. I don't know ...