You know you don't get a chance but once in a lifetime to write that and think it's fun. So this is post 2-I know you've all been waiting. But it will show up posted later which is some English mean time measurement I can't remember and I don't really care too much to correct it, though the other side definitely posts accurate times for the time zone I exist in. It is EST here, 7:10 on the clock.
I am a failure, as I am half drunk though we won't drink on the weekends, or really maybe I will just hide some cans in the fridge so I don't get sucked into the process. Watch says 5374 and I failed on my workout, too. I know, how inspiring, right? Watch me turn it around!!
I did clean a lot more the goal is to get it all organized and working so I could ya know, get a job someone is willing to pay me enough to do.
That I will show progress on later, but do know I am trying. It's just hard to discipline yourself when you are a literal freebird most hours of the day. Thanks to God ...
I have been writing more at the other site--the urgency in trying to get information out certainly seems worth protecting vs waxing poetic here, but I am trying something new for February. I don't ever post photos publicly so will do video progression of my thing. The thing? Me.
See, being in smaller apartments in Alexandria hasn't boded well in terms of my weight. and I weigh about 22 lbs more than I did last year this time. So I am trying to fix some things, correct some things, have a few goals, and hopefully come out better for it. 10,000 steps, though today I only got it 7231 so far, I do know what it takes to get there.
Part of this discipline is me writing here every day as well, so look out world, you might be stuck with me coming here to give you my heart issue advice and progress on my new challenge of discipline. Beyond that, I still want to separate parts of me out. I'd prefer this to be heartland, the corona site to be coronavirus-related, one site political, one site catering to agoraphobia, one site for my husband because why ...
I suppose that seems possibly more alarming than it's intended to be. I don't have COVID, no no, everyone knows that's incredibly unlikely to happen to me. But I have been in the hospital several times during these latest surges. In September, it was manageable, the second week of December, not so much though. Not the pain, mind you, the pain was much worse the second time.
The problem is, though, the problem is the leak isn't big enough to cause any concern, or maybe it's not the death's door knell I always feel haunting me. The big tests, the CT scan. the ECHO, these things usually determine if you're a dead person in a short period or there's something rumbling down which might create your death. These tests did not show that though the pain was certainly still there, it's still a numb part I can feel now-back left shoulder closest to the top of the arm, the left top arm, the sometimes straying left hand and wrist. When I was in the hospital it was like a knife was incising me and there was no relief.
There was also no room, however, for any investigation, let alone ...
