my discipline is shit and other stories

Man I could have used that title so many times it's probably something I should be ashamed of being, but I am what I am and so that isn't something I will bug out over at this time.

I did sit down to write before my class yesterday but got distracted as I often do and realized I was running later than I wanted. I would report on the food I ate but does anyone really care? Uh, no. I am not some shining example of success in really any world at this point, BUT I am trying. Also, part of my delay was me dealing with something I have been practicing avoidance on, and those were my student loans. I made the call as I am now 90 days overdue and felt the burden shifting in my head and wondering what the heck I should do. I called, proposed a few different scenarios I am living and tbh--the $60k lottery win seems like it's just a dream. BUT--if I did win something that large it would have to go to pay that off so I could be a normal 40 something like most of my peers. One thing ...