lines to cross and slop

Published August 28th, 2019 in 2019 | No Comments »

holy crap. I have realized my patience with the world is slipping almost daily it seems sometimes, but I think a lot of that is this hostility I seem to harbor while driving, and I am really trying to work that out.

Another group I have kind of concentrated a little of my scorn for are actually a range of people in the medical community who have kind of sucked a lot, and some are maybe better researchers than any kind of humanitarian sent to save me from myself.

I don't need anyone to save me from myself but myself, of course, but the doctor in the hospital, the one who gave me that shit prognosis? Well, he seemed to be a bit surprised they cannot see the clot with the ultrasound right now. Yes the clot blocking not 1 but 3 arteries. Couldn't see it. Not to say remnants might not be found with other methods later, but that's kind of a big deal. I told them of my pomegranate diet and blueberries and they kind of shrugged it off but....there has to be something to it. He did apologize to me for making me feel like I was ...

Category: 2019

fission and the vision

Published August 18th, 2019 in 2019 | No Comments »

Progress regress movement all the time. That's kind of what you hope for a life, but the past few years things have been a little stagnant in the fort complex apartment community I have lived in and I am just done. The whole almost dying again thing kind of made that a little more urgent--and yeah I think now I have to focus on making what I CAN happen in places where resources for that might be a bit more plentiful.

Living in Cap Hill was somewhat better than some places I've lived here in terms of community but I think there needs to be a big change in my life so we can get the hell out of here finally and I can have as close to that life as I've tried to over the years. We're going to head downtown somewhere and yeah, it's expensive, but the $500 increase in rent from where we're at I can quantify into a sum I'd pay to be closer to some inspiration I've been missing in the space I've been surrounded by lately--plus that's like 16 bucks a day. I've been reading all these stories about wishing for the thing ...

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