Day 1-A Start, Maybe

I feel like I might need to mark this day because I am hoping it will arc into a longer and larger trend. But last night was the first night we didn't drink ourselves drunk in some time. With a declared intention and perhaps even the temptation of wine, we didn't do it, and fell asleep naturally, sans alcoholic intervention. I've mentioned this in passing on occasion, but the both of us have turned into alcoholics, hence it's not hard to draw the line to say things like, we are both waiting to die, which I wrote a few posts ago. I realize it's kind of probably disappointing for some people, thinking they are going to come here and read some inspirational, she never life get her down bullshit, but I am not superhuman, nor do I want to be--the strength I muster to continue on seems sufficient enough for me sometimes, despite or in spite of all of the bullshit with opportunity, cash deficiencies and yes, even bad decisions I made which have left me in the place I am in. One thing I can say is I never give up, or not for long, as I am always ...