So I got a hold of my friend who has helped make this happen and I have a pretty spectacular plan. Some of you may remember the site I built because I wanted to be a facilitator of aid to those who suffered from heart and aortic conditions I guess more succinctly. There were no scholarships for those who endured this stuff--so I had the tshirts, hell I still have a ton--but I was trying to sell them on the site and start a fund. I sold two, so you all know how well that went. Then I used that to help myself because whatever world...I have had to learn to expect and own nothing in the United States of America and yeah, I still have enormous debts, and yes, I still will never have peace of mind, because that is what illness allows you the ability to enjoy in this country.
I won nothing with the Powerball, but boy did I have plans to help many.
In any case the site is getting totally revamped over the weekend. I am separating the blogs out to the scars because really, that is what those blogs seem to illuminate the most--the ...
Okay you guys. This is me. I am trying to try this new thing called discipline I will take you on my journey fulling realizing. I do not take selfies though many of you know my penchant in the early years. I have aged pretty well for someone who has gone through 7 major surgeries--it took some effort but never once have I done any injectables, no fillers, no botox of any kind. I have done a bunch of stuff to the surface of my skin, but never any surgical intervention. My lips I have had my whole life, not too many pokes beyond pore purging. I am clearly overplucked, but that is getting addressed this year, too. Microblading. Yup.
But, small announcement in my announcements---I am going to make some changes to some things around here shortly. Heartsandscars is taking on a new role as an information center for FAQs I often see addressed in forums for those suffering aortic dissections. There is a ton of information I can lend there and to have it not be a blog would be invaluable to a few. Scars and hearts will hold the blogs, well the ...
this is one of those if you are judgy walk away posts, fair warning
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Better to get down to the point of it rather than tiptoe around the edges of pretty thoughts and ideas. Pretty thoughts and ideas kind of never go anywhere since they are usually the kinds of things that keep sitting in your head and certainly hardly fucking manifest if you do nothing. Clearly this is a struggle that might not just be my own, but certainly my issues haven't been for lack of ideas. Oh my god, if I had registered a patent for every one. That would have been impressive, but instead I am left with a host of ideas unhosted basically.
Don has been researching the social media phenoms lately and is pretty much ready with me to start some sort of experiment, though trust me the eventual death wishes and horrible streams of diarrhea which arrive with an unknown group I have been heady and cognizant of for most of my adult life. I know exactly what happens when you put yourself out there so easy to touch. Keep in mind this blog is from pieces of blogs back to '99 was it? Maybe a pinch earlier. That's a lot of life and that ...
