I have realized this whole freedom thing I am experiencing is not the most comfortable thing. I think I would be better at it were I not totally alone in this house, but for now, I am dealing with it as well as I can. Not the freedom thing, the alone with just me and the dog thing.
I have never been free to just do what I want. I don't think most people understand what I mean by that. I mean I can literally do whatever I want to make money, and technically I can make as little or as much of it as I can. I do not have to worry about health insurance because for the first time since I was 17--I am not the one responsible for carrying it. The onus for that is on Don, and I don't envy that, exactly, but he has been getting the kinds of job inquiries that have that as something you get without having to put in the requisite 90 days--generally speaking benefits for jobs for him over the past year or two seem to start on Day 1. I have never had that kind of skill set ...
Speaking of that, I resigned from my job yesterday. A job I had for 6+ years. On top of it being the only job I have kept for more than 3 years ever, it was something I really enjoyed doing. I enjoyed the people I worked with, the selling process, all of it that involved the actual completion of the work. I was really quite good at it, in fact, and I left before management figured out a way to disparage me. I know I bitch and complain here, but this is like my private room where some of you come around every once in a while to peer in, but ultimately I am nothing but fun to work around, because I understand the nuances of psychology and being someone who can be looked up to, and counted on. Nobody wants a negative person in their work environment, so I always always tried to be a positive force.
I respected the people I worked with, and even if I did not like them personally, never spent any time wishing anything poorly on them. I simply ALWAYS treated people the way I wanted to be treated, so when ...
People never cease to surprise me at the levels of the cruelty they are willing to immerse themselves into to show you just what a piece of shit they think you are. I battle people all the time on healthcare rights and even basic things like, don't tell me what to do with my body. As I have mentioned before, I am totally fucking alone right now. And I mean it. I am without much in terms of human contact but by voice 7 days a week for the next 6 months or so.
This week was definitely challenging as it was the week I realized people will actually laugh at the fact that I will definitely kill myself if my healthcare is rescinded, over burden someone else with responsibilities that lie outside the realms of decency. I will not burden someone to carry the bills that are inevitable if I stroke out and I do hope to die immediately if so, as my wit is all I fucking have most of the time.
This week I got a speeding ticket where the officer told me that it was perfectly legal to talk on the phone and drive. I ...
