So...I am waiting here for the next call about the thing hanging out in my uterus, and I had my other appointment for the CT with the cardio-thoracic surgeon a little over an hour ago---dammit all, it's really going and the degradation from 2012 was apparently significant enough to warrant some major concern for the valve, so it will be a third time, unless I die first, of course. Six to twelve is the timeline there.
One hearty realization was the recognition I am going to have to seriously curb the stress in my life, which is super awesome and easy to do in a pandemic with neither of us working, of course, but we will figure it out. I think this new foray into social media might provide its own issues, but ultimately I just will have to be deliberate yet disciplined and just relegate the hate away to places where I don't have to simmer it in. That's the one thing I haven't been able to obtain complete immunity from--feeling badly due to someone else's words or actions, even with the understanding and I get it, only I can control my own reactions to things. But if ...
Radio silence is usually a sign around here that things got taken off the rails a bit. Don has been madly searching for work but has been denied unemployment from both Colorado and Nebraska, something we hope one day gets remedied, but depending on the government to do the right thing or catch up is not a winning strategy. See, he was laid off from the last job he had before Nebraska and so did start the initial unemployment claim---but he got a job in Nebraska so never claimed a single week on it last September. Given the states love ping ponging financial responsibility--they will do and look for anything to deny you. Nebraska denied him because he had an open claim in Colorado from last September and claimed he could claim in Nebraska after that runs out, we assume in September. And Colorado told Don he couldn't claim in Colorado since he didn't have record of work after September 24, 2019. So that nice $600 bonus? Not happening to benefit us right now and really...what the fuck, universe.
Of course for Don this is par for the course given he literally for some reason has anything easy when ...
Seems those are the two choices most of us have. One of my less evolved friends, meaning one of my republican friends tried to tell me she got called racist because she asked for things to just go back to normal. My response ultimately was, this is not your time to air your grievances, this is the time for us to be a bit quiet and listen--the platform right now should be respected for what it is. I told her none of us should want things to go back to normal after this and what happened to that man was murder and I do hope we get some change out of this. My idea of change involves changing the entire philosophy of what our police are to us--perhaps dissolving the idea in some ways and make some concessions that sometimes we don't need people who see their customers or clients or people they serve as enemy combatants--maybe change the way incidents are handled because there is certainly no need to act that way with anyone--we are not animals and we should not be handled like animals by our law enforcement especially, and we absolutely should hold them to ...
