moments of reflection and self correction

Things have been going along pretty fantastically considering--and I've realized the small circle of people around us--it's enough, and with less to touch, there's less to hurt us and though it can seem pretty lonely at the end of the day, we don't have to be a part of bullshit at all. Bullshit in dealings with people and cliques of all kinds, you know those circles that aren't entirely supportive and somehow exist to make you feel worse about yourself? I cannot tell you the number of women who are older than me who I see complaining about this on social media, and maybe it's my cynicism or maybe it's that I developed a thick skin in my dealings with people, but I am certainly not desperate enough for connections which serve no purpose other than to make me feel worse about me. I will simply cut you off like the dead weight you are to my soul. I moved out here a little over 7 years ago and left a really good life in search of family. Meaning I suppose I had expectations that I would somehow learn how it would be to have a family because--well, really, the family ...