a little bit of something for a whole world of nothing
It’s funny how strange it is to learn the lessons I have learned. Purely by chance, circumstance.
People definitely have “disappointed” me for quite some time. I decided to quit noticing that and start picturing myself in other places. Not in a voodoo like manner but to really think and feel and picture and believe.
People have said to me for years I was so strong, so positive. What a crock of shit that was. I just started learning what positivity really is, and as a result have come to understand the ill effects it has had on my life and well-being. My mind has a complete and direct correlation with every single thing that has “befallen” me. I quote these things because they are a direct misrepresentation of how I should have not thought.
If you think about your power to make people look at you in a room where you do nothing to attract them but for purely the thought. Then you think about the ideas of WANTing to attract that, and then seeing it, then believing it. It’s funny I hadn’t a clue how fucked up I was until someone else, a stranger pointed it out to me.
I also saw a healer the other day who reaffirmed my suspicions of the different ailments racking my body. Though it was my mind that caused the majority of the damage. I have begun to understand the whole idealogy of having the power in your hands to do what you want, when you want and be as successful as you want. It’s funny how jaded we become growing up, being told on a consistent basis that we can’t have, and that the things that we can come with hard work, tears, sweat and at best with a major bruise to our ability to expect, and to understand love.
My life is so completely different now than it was last week. Next year it will be unrecognizable. All from a little book and some advice given to me from a complete stranger…and then there’s the healer, but that’s a totally different story…
I never liked nor appreciated perspective shoved on me from demanding forces. Lately I have decided to take the reigns and control my own path.
J is starting to be super busy planning some schematics for the mission to Saturn. I, on the other hand, am still pimping out at Crunch and doing my other undercover work.
