It’s February and January Was a Waste

Well let's admit, it wasn't a waste in every sense, just in my time. Right now I am kind of losing my shit, trying my best to keep myself calm, while also conspiring to have a plan.

I haven't been able to pay any medical bills because we aren't able to save a bit with how expensive the East Coast is. Granted me not working doesn't help, no it absolutely doesn't, and I guess my semi-retirement plan needs an undo button of sorts. If you don't remember I quit my job almost 16 months ago because I was stressed out, and my BP was through the roof trying to manage the expectations my job had for me in terms of being accountable for every second after working for years without a complaint. I had already had a blood clot that summer and it seemed like the right time to step away. Now, I have NEVER done that, you know, had the space to do that given my precarious health condition has required that I keep health insurance at the forefront of every decision. So, yeah, I kind of fucked around for a bit, pretended I was free, took ...