Wow, world. It's kind of imploded in many ways, life here in this country--with a President seemingly completely oblivious and a public that is either too drunk or blind to see what the hell is going on. It is terrifying as the end result will be war here by Christmas is what it is looking like.
It's gotten to the point where I cannot even talk about my feelings on Facebook without someone writing some inflamed nonsense that has no real value but to highlight the divide. I'm realizing something like social media and Facebook are really not tools for change in that way...maybe with the groucho launch maybe so...but generally it is a losing game trying to discuss unless you fill your circles with people who only agree with you--I suppose in that circumstance it could root itself in some kind of movement but now--man. I am trying to eliminate stress from my life, not highlight it. I keep people in different circles around because I don't need to do that, surround myself with people who only agree with me. There is no growth possible in that so I don't do it. A lot of the inflamed nonsense seems to ...
That's something someone wrote today in my facebook feeds--and wow did it hit. I suppose these are why these things are spoken and I suppose sometimes these are the things we need to hear. Right now I am sitting in quasi frozen space. I feel trapped by my lack of progress, and I don't mean progress in the grander sense like I often refer to in regards to the big adult things. Those are the things I am most focused on, no---but the small spaces and graduations of time which allow you to feel like you are moving...you might now know exactly where you are moving, but you are moving and events are changing you and interactions are shaping you. Every day literally does feel the same, except the weather. Right now the holding space we are sitting within is the one you realize you are in with virtually not a string of support in any facet. I am not changing, I am settling into this place and I don't like it. I know there is a way out that requires I lift the veil in a lot of ways, become a little more interactive, become a lot more ...
Hmmm. I have figured some stuff out recently with regards to how this puppy has been run and how I have not even TRIED to monetize anything. I had been added to a group of people who travel and telecommute, effectively running their businesses behind the scenes, from whatever country they want. They certainly have a little more going on in terms of their interactions with the general public and certainly are a little more focused on doing rather than just venting. Clearly I had some traffic for a while which was probably readily earned and I've spent periods of my time with clever ideas, periods of my time with shitty ideas and in both circumstances my follow through has been largely non-existent. With the sheer number of websites I have owned--you'd think there would have been a little more attention paid to revenue streams. For reasons of just sheer ignorance my focus has always been on developing my own product or gimmick for service, instead of realizing I have a hell of a lot of experience in so many things--from cooking to painting to jewelry making to decorating to eating to designing...I've got so many ideas and so much ...
