In efforts not to continuously repeat my same mistakes, I am trying to do things a little differently. This has led me to the path and understanding that where I am is a direct reflection of me…my experiences and how I have reacted. It was never about anyone else even if they did me wrong,…
Girl, You did it again. I swear it would be fantastically amazing and unique to have the ends justify the means. One day, right? ha! I went up to Canada…fell in love, and now I am back, smashed to the ground and my own reality. I think in a lot of ways what I do…
implanted by hormonal imbalances… I feel the need to shut the hell up, but scream at the heavens. I want so much right now, and though itissoclose, I am also afraid. Afraidofsuccess or maybe even afraidofsomething stronger. I am trying not to push what I want to the curb, but I also know I am…
I’ve realized that since last July things have been a lot more freeing…though not exactly entirely comfortable. I just finally unpacked and painted my room…I have been in a constant state of flux, moving and shaking around, spending little time in my room but to sleep. Now it’s somewhat of a lovely little energy flux…
Ok so I cursed god (and no, I am not prone to fairy tale pandering) last summer when he failed to deliver a fantastic end to what started out to be a lovely summer. I guess the rain started heavily in July–I never felt connected to it after then. But this year proves to be…
I find myself randomly inspired. Not that I am inspired to do nothing, but sometimes the fire flickers for a while, my eye fixated at some sparkly thing my hand heart or mouth wants to touch. Sitting on Monday mornings is always a lovely way to reflect on things…I’ve decided these books need to get…
Running around naked and spewing random thoughts at walls–oops. Shut your mouth, girl. Release the pen. It’s funny that I seem to go through phases where I want to just purge all that sits in my head, and other days where you can’t get me to budge on anything too inside because it’s just not…
I have a feeling things are gonna start going bananas. Today I saw someone I had not seen in some time…and I was not as grossed out as I thought I would be. More like, normal. Not the neighbor who assaulted me, no. I have been spewing a ton of self-doubt lately. Mostly because I…
My apartment smells like chilean sea bass. That was my dinner last night, finely prepared by Miss L. Geez-that girl can cook–I always thought I could but I wasn’t married for 11 years to develop such skills. I am the incredibly shrinking woman. I used to have ass, some semblance of chest, and a little…
Well thank the gods I am starting to level back down to the plane of rationality. I went a little cuckoo there for about ten days.. Because of my general irrationality and insanity I decided I needed to see someone to smack me in the face and tell me it was ok. I was coming…
