Drama in personal experiences ended once communication was sought-funny how upset you can get when you don't know what is going on. This can all be quelled with the standard release of information, and emotions; these can still clip you clean in the legs and leave your heart pumping and quaking.
I usually try to follow my own advice: "Talk to him, talk to her", but usually forget about the most important aspects in any mystery: seek the facts, and communicate with the characters in the mystery and make your own deductions. Sometimes things are as simple as very black, and very white, but the truth usually wavers over the line, sometimes favoring light over dark and vice versa.
I got my dragon and geisha colored in; this was more of a testament that I do have the ability to finish what I have started. It's quite easy given the assistance given to me. F was there and helped re-direct the pain that was coursing through the nerve endings in my skin.
Today I am considering what to do over my totally stupid job. Dropping a day wouldn't impose too much of a hit on my finances: given that before I was making ...
Why it is that I continually have expectations of people who don't necessarily deserve the testing involved that life throws us on a daily basis.
So-I care about someone, and he doesn't really have the capability of understanding it or knowing how to handle it. Reciprocal feelings are not so discounted but I am tired of dealing with the hordes of unfeeling people that have been my experience in New York. Though parts of me can give in to my selfishness in wanting to feel or be with someone who has the ability to give to someone who is nothing more than energy constricted into a tight and diseased body. I am a creature who has gained increased emotional sensitivity because of my health experiences but I feel as though I deserve much better than the standard blazeh pseudo-energy that people misplace into situations because they know no better. I want and need something that is probably not in the cards for me.
Half of me wants to give up on the game, and not because I was obsessed with playing or finding a worthy opponent, but because I can give nothing but pain and loss if anything ever synthesized properly. ...
So, I am not really into the celebrity factor. I find it funny that 150 people can be wrapped around the block on the weekends, waiting to get up to my bar. I mean, do people really expect that they are gonna get to hang out with these people, and shoot the shit? Johnny Knoxville is kind of uncool. Steve O gave me a fat hug and hit on all the hot girls that were around him for the four days they spent hanging out on the roof. Then there was Metallica, who stayed in the hotel most of last week. They tip very very very very well, so I complain not. There was the red-headed super model that tipped 86 on a $168 buckaroo bill, and the $120 slipped to me last night on a $98 bill. This is what making money entails though-no sleep, dealing with people who have more money than god and pee in out on $14 drinks and $15 glasses of champagne. That's the deal with working at the new "it" place. I have made invaluable contacts in regards to my screenplays though, so it's all rockstar from here on out.
I had this stack of ...
