scarcity and time

The past 24 hours have been a bit of a whirlwind--emotionally and spiritually I have been a little taxed and renewed and still feel a little lost to some things. I realize my concept of time is not like other people's. Not in a general this is my time, here you are but an overarching sense of accomplishment that comes generally with time passing or some recognition of landmarks. I suppose every birthday is kind of not the thing where I am like YAYYYY--I made it to another one. But I guess a mark of time that things really haven't changed a great deal in terms of the passing of time. I am still just as unaccomplished as I was in my 20's and 30's--I still have the call center job. I still have had too many anniversaries to really even know anymore what to even celebrate. But then I realize I do this with ALL things in my life. I have never been an anniversary person, you know, the person eager to mark time into landmarks--hell Don and I barely know what I guess our anniversary is--maybe 10/25/2011, but we got married in February. Not for anything but insurance, don't forget, ...