Life with an Unknown Disease

Published June 18th, 2012 in 2000-2011 | 1 Comment »

So after my stroke scare a few Saturdays ago, I got a little reality shot into my veins, really kind of shoved into my face a little too forcefully for my general easy-going demeanor. I used to call it living my life while many of you would call it ignorance, and you would be right, because I am a little stubborn when it comes to certain things. And by stubborn I mean stupid.

I got an email that Monday morning after my incident with details on what it means to suffer a TIA and how it can precede real strokes which could have the opportunity to really do some damage. As in that warning could have been for an even bigger stroke which could really be catastrophic. I started to think of how shitty it would be to be trapped inside your own body and not able to tell people you were there, like I felt in some ways on Saturday. Being aware and not having the words able to come out of my mouth how I intended was a new kind of voicelessness I really want to avoid.

Even two days later, I was still feeling a little off center of ...

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Stroking my fears here…

Published June 3rd, 2012 in 2000-2011 | No Comments »

Stroke...what an evil concept, but one I am all too familiar with--the stroke will likely be the thing that does me in one day, save for the freak car accident or possibility of getting hit by a bus. Which is actually not a bad way to go, though it does sound stupid: rationalizing dying through someone else's careless actions, though I've done nothing to do this to myself.

Yesterday I had one, but I downplayed it for most of my reading public. Even my boyfriend isn't entirely aware that it was an actual stroke. I recognized the issue initially while I was in yoga--I probably should have walked out as soon as I felt the funny-but for fear of offending the teacher who is also someone I know outside of class I decided to stay. This involved me not recognizing my right arm as my own during a side stretch up, me getting aggravated the girl next to me was in my space, and then I realized that foreign object was MY actual arm and I pushed through to the end of class without recognizable incident.

Then I got home and that's when the real fun began. In the midst of poaching ...

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