April Showers and May Flowers

Published April 26th, 2018 in 2000-2011 | No Comments »

One could only hope, right? Well, that would make me happy but seems like the snow has hit the whole damn country the past few weeks! As it is I am plugging along, and I felt the need to remark this as a quiet reminder to myself and also because I am terrible at notating certain things because it doesn't seem newsworthy or it might seem like the kind of thing I could never forget. Yesterday I went to visit with a possible new primary care physician--a visit at first initiated by my need to get certain lady things checked out. I have been a bit behind in that because I have had the same partner for 7 years just about and also because, God, really? You kinda suck in spades if you give me any of the lady cancers because number one, I can't have kids anyways, and number two, I BARELY have boobs. Doesn't matter though, as a few people have pointed out, neither did Nancy Reagan and she fought breast cancer. Soooooo--there is a lump and honestly? I have done self-exams literally a handful of times in my life because it seemed unnecessary as I clearly have nothing ...

Category: 2000-2011

moments of reflection and self correction

Published April 10th, 2018 in Pleasantly Positive | No Comments »

Things have been going along pretty fantastically considering--and I've realized the small circle of people around us--it's enough, and with less to touch, there's less to hurt us and though it can seem pretty lonely at the end of the day, we don't have to be a part of bullshit at all. Bullshit in dealings with people and cliques of all kinds, you know those circles that aren't entirely supportive and somehow exist to make you feel worse about yourself? I cannot tell you the number of women who are older than me who I see complaining about this on social media, and maybe it's my cynicism or maybe it's that I developed a thick skin in my dealings with people, but I am certainly not desperate enough for connections which serve no purpose other than to make me feel worse about me. I will simply cut you off like the dead weight you are to my soul. I moved out here a little over 7 years ago and left a really good life in search of family. Meaning I suppose I had expectations that I would somehow learn how it would be to have a family because--well, really, the family ...


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