Grand Lake inspirations

Published July 13th, 2017 in 2000-2011 | No Comments »

I suppose I haven't been doing the writing thing to the level I've crafted my own stories and editorials in my own head---I'm the most prolific writer there ever was, if only I would write it down or type it in---sometimes I hate myself for my ineffective follow through with most things--it's hard managing all the dreams I have with the limits of really nothing but cash I suppose. The time I seem to have is definitely not minimal in my days as of the past month--from March until June I was working 7 days a week between my day job and a job I had as a waitress at Gumbos--a little restaurant owned by an even tinier man who sucks and I got to tell him so on my last day. One of those epic types of talking to that was just as effective as shitting on your boss' desk, which maybe only some of us have wished at one point in our lives or another. Currently my boss at the travel company kicks ass and I would never shit on his desk, but you get my drift. Said in the exchange, or really said in my goodbye--not necessarily in this ...

Category: 2000-2011

the drafts are endless because I just can’t get it right…

Published July 4th, 2017 in 2015 and beyond | No Comments »

You'd think I had more to fucking say over the past swell of time...and I certainly do--in spurts, small jetties of words that come rushing out and then I realize...what I have to say is not well encompassed with just words lately--oh I've got drafts, so many drafts-- dozens of half-saved musings hidden behind these screens. There's this fresh horror that the good guys once again aren't winning and I feel totally fucking paralyzed by it. I think part of my non movement is based in this idea that people are just very fucking unaware and really....why would I burden myself with the monuments of worry when everyone else seems to be rolling right along. I have fifteen half written stories in my head about shit I need to do and part of my paralysis there has and always will be--once I do what I said I would...will that be the end of it all? Like I can change my own future by avoiding mark posts to progress, removing anything too terribly memorable about myself because... Because I really must be an idiot... I have been trying to figure out a way to make a place away from the place that many of ...

Category: 2015 and beyond

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