questions of a pointed nature

Published June 23rd, 2015 in 2000-2011 | No Comments ยป

So many allusions and alliterations in this one--so hard to really nail down how I feel and what I think...the only thing I am sure of is what I am thinking isn't good. Isn't good in that it leaves me hollow, flat, lifeless, not sure what the hell it all is.

I got back through my history and it seems this is a trend for me, the despair, the poverty. And yeah, yeah, I have a medical condition that threw everything so far off it was hard to know where to start. But really?!?! Really is this life really MY burden or did I make a fucked up choice some time ago which somehow has fucked me into this fateful mess. I question and I question...because I am sick of just eating the shit sandwiches in front of me, unable to complain because sick people can't, unable to see a way out.

Yeah, it's life and it sucks and it isn't fair....but where the fuck is the joy supposed to come from? I read these articles about people losing their shit and just ending it--and I am starting to really wonder WHY I am here.

Yeah, life is suffering, I get that. But where ...

Category: 2000-2011

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